loochi

loochi was standing below 3 star hotel...she wanted to go into dominoes.but it was all filled up.she wanted to eat her fav chicket wings so she decided to wait.suddenly the lights went out.she thought maybe it was not wise after all to venture out alone, and that too for a taste of chicken wings.but loochi was no chicken, she was brave, thats what she told herself.the rain was not stopping.the roads ahead were illuminated by the occasional headlights of coming vehicles.a car would not be a bad idea she thought.at least she wudnt have to worry abt transport.and then that loneliness, again why did she keep getting back these flashbacks.she was sick of them.

loud laughing noise...a bunch of boys..had gathered around the spot were loochi stood.they were using lewd vocab and husky vocals..and cracking jokes at passerbys.obviously intimidated the passerbys preffered to go on and not look.loochi was caught in a spot where if she would go forward she had to cross them,and then she would have nowhr to go but back.and why would she deny herself chicken wings because of some rowdys..she wasnt scared,but yes she was worried.suddenly one of the guys spotted her.a tone of hushed mischievious planning and then all those eyes stared at her.
this disturbed loochi.she made out clearly three lanky figures in black..roadside culture stamped on them.she ignored them,and suddenly one of them came up to her,she jolted back...


trained in martial arts she knew the fastest manuevres but she was in panic and she cud not think.but the grin on the man's face made loochi's blood boil.a ketchup bottle her hands found,she smashed it within seconds on the guys head.loochi was so fast that the other 2 guys stared bluntly.was it blood or ketchup on his head ,loochi thought.he dropped on her feet and she decided she made the impact quite effectively the guy fainted before uttering anything.

the whole place was frozen and u would expect the other guys to fly into rage but loochi did evrything right.she picked up the broken bottle and started swaying it in the air.and she gave her message a broken bottle is even more deadly.they picked up their comrades and fled.

loochi stood there, the dominos guy called out to her..she went inside and had her dinner.somepart of her was lonely and the other part proud that she blew the daylight out of those roadies.the other people in the place looked respectfully at her, she didnt show any emotion,as she was trained to, respect from dead people she supposed.on her way out she took a gudang garam,smiled at her self ,smoked the cig under the umbrella and headed towards hostel.

holi

holi has come,seasons change but the mood remains the same.i was happy for a couple of hours yesterday,just being there i guess.otherwise things are nasty,as nasty as they could get.wishing holi is far fetched thought,wishing good luck was an everyday affair.i could go on ahead and meet em guys but alas,fault of mine ,poor wretched soul i have been cursed of not moving that way.it has been my wish to see em beasties where they are seated and everythings fine and stuff like a good samartian.but i have denied myself that luxury and it chokes midway down my ailementary canal.happy holi or happy diwali i think the first word is missing eh..

rock in india

the topic is changing.how about the biggest thrash metal gig in india.9 bands one aim all the fukking headbanging u cud ever afford.the crowd was super and the energy was exhilerating.not all the bands did their best,but we liked some of the indian bands too much.there was one band named mother jane and one called millenium.both had extraordinary musicians.megadeth given only an hour,did the best they cud they rocked ...it was so fukking crazy..weed all over the air,whiskey shots,headbanging,real awesome experience.we went home in silence but we realized thrs only silence and metal,in between evrything is small talk

living in hell.its much better to die.i can now even envisage the wild furtiveness of a suicidal soul.things turned out to be really bad.i wanna feel something real in my life ,all i have felt is hatred.is this what its all about,then i shall not speak until i find ..

i have one regret.no one would understand.

werw

things are not changing a bit.what i realized today was that its becoming difficult for the both of us to communicate.i was standing there and it was so unfair that it was the way it was.we have to talk today or tomorrow ..i hope so

reason

i am getting affected.it seems ages now since i smiled or laughed.i would like to cry to scream and have some overture of emotions.but all seems placidand all seems gone.what gud can come off it i fail to see,but i dont want to end it here like this,i demand reason.